L I F E

I'm not happy with my life, I know I'm blessed when I truly think about it, but I don't feel like I have a life anymore if that makes sense. All I do now is stay home and eat eat eat. I've gained 24 pounds and hate it, yet I still eat, eat and eat. That's mainly one of the reasons why I don't go out anymore too. None of my clothes fit me anymore and It's no fun shopping when you're overweight...and short! I'm only standing at 4'8 and am currently 120 pounds. My thighs look like a wrestlers thighs! I hate it! On top of that I've been fighting my mind like mad. I've had a past with General Anxiety Disorder and beat it, so I will beat this too. I feel I've become no fun, considering I don't do anything anymore besides going to work and going out and buying necessities. My boyfriend of five years is beginning to drink and I'm sure it's boring being with me not wanting to do anything. I know this sounds like a depressing blog and I just need to do something NOW! Ugh, how I wish my life would be...

How I wish my body looked like again, just a few minor adjustments to be made here, but I love and miss this body of mine! :(